I've got some neat gifts, I guess. I have an enviable metabolism, parents that let me get away with anything, a nice car, quick wit... I even ended up with some seriously awesome friends.
The best part of my life is the control I have over my emotions. I can use music or willpower to force myself into whatever mood I desire and I can't even imagine how much better that has made my life. Right now I'm listening to Finntroll. I'm having a great time doing it. Just hearing something as silly and awesome as "troll metal" is chasing away any bad thoughts. Bad vibes from beer pong bloopers and work-related injury. Unhappiness about even more of my friends moving away and the fact that I may not have time to visit them. I listen to music like this and I don't care.
I could be unhappy if I wanted to. I could break out songs that crush me every time. I can find stuff that makes me angry or nostalgic or whatever.
Even without music, though, I can keep myself happy or angry. I don't know how or why but willpower works on my emotions. I suspect it's got something to do with me being gullible constantly lying to myself. Maybe I'm just numb from watching James die. Who gives a fuck. I'm happy about it. Just thought I'd let that out.
Also, for the first time in my life I'm willing to admit that I'm tired of being single.
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meeeee toooo
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