Admittedly it was a good weekend, but I'm slipping back into introversion. Every day I'm surrounded by people with whom I feel no connection, despite the links we had in the past. Every weekend goes by tainted by the knowledge that I have another week of work. Another week with no connections and no extremes, not that the weekends have any. The same bland emotion stays from Monday to Friday and often back to Monday. I even feel my old charisma slipping from lack of use and lack of care. Oh, well. That's not the Cameron you know. If anyone needs me I'll be faking happy and living an isolated life in my dream world of work and weekends and absolutely no future.
I'd say I needed a drink, but I don't. I need a lifestyle overhaul. I want something more substantial and less isolated. Gods damn my hatred of change. Gods damn my embrace of procrastination and watching the world move on while my dreams die in its wake.
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3 comments:
i'm curious what your views will be in another 4 years.
Of all people you cannot be introverted for very long. *hug* It just seemed like a good idea at the time.
My views will steadily decline if things stay the way they are. I'm currently a college dropout working a job that can't sustain me outside my house and half-ass trying to get back in school and get on a motorcycle like I'm having a midlife crisis.
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