So Brandon IMed me today in a mood to kill. I set in motion a plan to play some 40K tonight and before I knew it people were here. Lots of people. Emily, her friend (whose name I still don't know), Nikki, Brandon, Joseph, Joey, Alicia, and after some convincing, Kaitlin. All was good. It eventually devolved into random tickle wars and Kaitlin and I full on punching each other at random. I have this neat bruise near my liver. With any luck she's got a matching one on her left arm. >:)
But for once I was poking people and tickling and punching and I didn't give a flying fuck. I wasn't so reserved and had no qualms about touching my friends. I have loosened up and I'm strangely really happy about it. I've been meaning to do shit like that for a while. I know, tickling and punching are nothing special to anyone else. I don't touch people ever. The fact that I was able to overcome my neurosis is a big win for me. Kaitlin seems to have beaten herself up over the same shit. I don't know why.
One of my friends is in distress and I can't really bring myself to be happy. That's just how I roll, I guess. I just have to hang out and hope nothing bad happens sometimes.
Also, it took me years to get used to Gabe's random sexual assault. I think I'm finally used to Joey being the creepiest motherfucker I know. Great kid. Wouldn't be surprised if he killed and ate a girl.
I actually have several bruises from last night... the painful ones are on my left arm... they are in a group that one would consider one large bruise, but I like to go with the fact that they are five small-ish bruises that some would consider to be one large one. I also have two or three dark ones from Brandon's elbows on my thigh... The ones on my left arm are more fun to poke.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I have a ton of bruises too. Still. And I didn't even notice taht you were actually touching people. Go you, Cam.
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