Remember that midterm I mentioned in the last post? I got a 27% on it. 16 out of 60. The class average was 47/60. She pointed out that anyone with a 30/60 should drop the class.
You know what happens when I drop the class? I'm no longer certified for coop. The one thing I've been really waiting for for two years is gone. I have no choice but to pass this or I don't have a job spring quarter. I can afford maybe two more quarters, but after that I'm out of money and I can't work and do engineering.
I pass calc or I'm just biding my time before I have to drop out and try another school. Give up two years. Fuck that.
I feel like I've been kicked in the lungs.
I can already see the sympathetic responses I'm getting from this. I don't want them. Take your sympathy and shove it up your ass. I don't need anyone to tell me they know how I feel or it'll all be okay. Fuck that. I need an ass kicking.
No hugs; only punches. Ugh. Once again I'm relying on nothing more than music to make me feel okay. I hate fucking up like this. Stress that makes it physically difficult to breathe isn't worth it.
On an entirely separate note, a storm is brewing a few miles southeast of campus. I think it's gonna rain on my parade. Metaphor metaphor metaphor.
And Read the comment Emily left here. Well played, madam, well played.
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4 comments:
i'm sure there is something you can do to help you catch up and pass.
don't give up yet you have a whole other half of a semester to fix it
like meagan said, i'm sure you can fix it. Hell, i should be on probation. wooo you can do it.
Kindof felt like Owens there...Small and "in charge."
first off, take a day off and just calm down. then study everyday. EVERY DAY. The only reason i do so well in all of my classes is because i put in a bare minimum of three hours of study and homework a day. Do that, and you'll be fine!
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