What the fuck?

So I'm siting here in Basic Thermodynamics. For those of you who don't know, thermodynamics is the study of heat transfer and energy change and is more or less the process that makes chemistry work. Anyway, I'm not paying shit attention as usual.
I never pay attention.

But I don't really party, either. I do no homework and I don't party. Some people go to college for academic reasons and spend most of the time studying. Some people go to college to be away from home and spend most of the time partying. I know plenty who are in mostly because it delays the whole "real world" thing for half a decade. I, somehow, am in for none of that. Perhaps the latter, but I don't know. I just know that the main reason I'm still in a major this hard but don't do any work is because I've been saying I was in for materials for two years now. I can't back down on that. I'm obligated by pride to spend the next four years doing this.

I see a bunch of my friends changing majors, too. Nikki, Chris, Seth, Mike... That's just this year. But I'd have to change schools entirely. I only get in-state for engineering. If I wanted to change majors I'd invariably end up at NKU, which probably doesn't have anywhere near the chance of getting me a high-paying job. I can basically do science and history and I'm against lengthy research papers. A few of the people who have changed majors are going for degrees that can get them low-paying jobs anywhere. They can become nomads. Freelance artists traveling the world and crashing wherever they know somebody. They would, as few can today, become real hobos. I'd kill for a life like that.

Whatever. I'm here. I'm stuck here. Might as well come out on top or die trying.